This week I kept it close. I believed that if I forgot to worry about this important thing coming up, then I wouldn't be prepared. As if worry equals preparation. As if worry equals control. As if worry equals comfort.
This practice has taught us to be mindful. To be silly. To be proud of our good choices. To know we are strong and brave and capable. To admit our faults. To embrace grace and to know a love that covers a multitude of wrongs.
We will inevitably hurt our children, fail them and bruise their souls. But we can also apologize, admit wrong and make room for grace in our homes. Asking for forgiveness can often speak louder than the hurt. Grace. Forgiveness. Humility. These are what make a home beautiful.
We will fail in our resolutions. But getting back up? That's just as good as the decision itself. To keep deciding, that's grit and virtue and self control and resilience for our souls. Jesus got back up. From the very grave.
God, thank you for gifts you can wrap and gifts you cannot. You love seeing us enjoy all kinds of gifts. Thank you for your love of giving. For your love, period. Thank you for grace. For unmerited favor upon a messy, broken person like myself. Thank you for coming.
But maybe God chooses ALL kinds of people. Maybe He chooses prostitutes for His heritage and murderers for His kings and blind men for His brothers and you and me and everyone for His family. Those who never leave the church building and those who left church decades ago.